Ohhh yeah hug me baby!

So um yeah apparently I give good hugs or that's what I've been told by someone. They told me I give warm hugs I believe it was and that they almost fell asleep in my arms when I was hugging them. I guess I can understand that because some people are just fun to hug. Like there's one friend of mine I swear everytime we hug it's at least a 30 second hug whereas with other people it might be a quick 10 second hug if that. Of course this person who loved my hugs also went on to say that I was just soo cute and that I'm adorable. Which I'll take because a lot of the times people who are "hot" are either complete bitches or cocky assholes. Cute people are fun so that works for me. LOL But then he also told me 2 other things which brings me to 2 rants I want to make or stuff I want to write about. He said I was just so cool to hang out with. So we'll go with that rant/rave/whatever first.

I still don't get it when people say that to me or I hear people tell other people that about me. I have a friend named Deanna and even before I met some people she was telling them how I was one of the coolest people she knew and stuff. And over the past year or so other people have said how cool I am and stuff like that. I guess I just don't see it because I'm so used to being the little wallflower that no one notices or even cares is there or not there. I'm not used to being one of the "cool" "popular" kids so to speak. It's just a weird change for me. I guess I'm just not used to impacting people's lives by being someone cool they know or anything like that. I mean to me I'm just me. Nothing more. Nothing less. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm a variety and by that I mean I listen to all types of music, I have all types of things that I enjoy doing and that's kind of how I am. I get along with all types of people. So I guess that's why to some people I'm "f*cking cool as hell". LOL I don't argue with it even though part of me wants to...I just go with it. But I still don't get it. I think it's honestly partially because I know how to have a good time and it spreads to other people. I've had groups of friends before that hated it when I wasn't in a good mood because it effected the whole night. It was like no one else could really have fun because I wasn't leading the charge so to speak.

And the other rant...why is it that the guys who are into you are always the ones you'd rather just be friends with and hang out with?? Those seem to be the ones that easily want to get to know you and be around you and see where things can go with you. And you look at them and just think nah I'd rather we just hang out and that's it. And I hate when it's like that because then if you're a nice person which I am...you kind of have to tread lightly around those people because you don't want to hurt them or give them the wrong signals and have them thinking there is more between you 2 then there is. Oh well I guess I'll get through it since I've dealt with a best friend having a crush on me and we're still friends. Speaking of which I really need to figure out my birthday. I'll probably do stuff the weekend before and after since I know how my friends are and I'll need to do something with each group. So since my one best friend is going to come into town I'll plan something with friends I've known for years and then the weekend after plan something with my more insane friends. Hi ya Elle. Hi ya Melissa. Haha =o) Oh well back to work I go.