No more drama...

I really can't take anymore drama. I swear since around my birthday last year till now everytime I turn around there's been a bit of drama coming my way. Some of it hasn't been bad and some of it has been just on my end. Like when I was more into a certain guy then he was and unfortunately had to find out the hard way. I mean come on...it's never fun when you hook up sexually with someone on the Saturday before your birthday, which was some time in November, and then you find out a few days later he flew south to meet some girl he had been talking to online and from what you know they hooked up with that girl as well. But hey that's life. It just caught me off guard at that time but I'm over it. I think it only bugged me because it caught me off guard. I think if he had told me more things upfront I would have been like okay, but it almost seemed like he was playing me at times and I can't stand that. Things are working out well for him and I've realized that I'm really not into him the way I thought I was. There's a lot about him that isn't me or what I want in someone. We'd make better friends then anything else, even if we did have some interesting hook up times. Although I still can't completely understand why he was so into wanting to go check out a gay club with me and my friends. LOL But I'm sure he had his reasons for being curious to see what the club was like. I mean the clubs are pretty interesting and definitely will make you go okay then by the time you leave. LOL A definite eye opener when you step into a gay club if you've never been. I normally only go because of my friend being gay and I feel it's only fair since Tim always goes with me to straight clubs/bars.

So let's see I've kind of already updated on one of my friends and that would be...well the name's not too important since he doesn't seem to like to keep in touch, so not sure if that means we're still friends or what. Tim is doing pretty good minus the times we have gotten into fights lately which is where the drama comes into play. I don't know if it's just part of us getting to know each other's boundaries or what but I can't take much more in the fights. I hate confrontations and most of ours have been stupid. Usually (in my opinion) it seems to be him pissed at me and I'm having to almost defend myself and then I get pissed because he's mad at me and that's what causes most of the problem. I'm sure getting through all of these issues will help make our friendship stronger. That's what happened with me and Josh. Josh...haha...he's still the same old freak. I'd love to go back and visit him in Philly again but I don't see that happening this year. Not with me trying to save up for my trip to Las Vegas and possibly the trip to Wisconsin the month before. I just won't have the money for another trip. Maybe next year I can go visit him again, but not in January...because damn it was colder there than in Ohio!!! And that's sad! And yes Josh...we'll hit the strip club again because that was kind of fun with guys offering me money to give them lapdances! LOL Plus I helped out some of the workers because guys tipped them more just because I got a shot from the shot girl (to explain she basically climbs on your lap to pour the shot into your mouth and the guy enjoyed the view so he tipped her for being able to watch). Plus after watching the latest Real World...damn there are some clubs we gotta hit in that city! Nikki and Joe have been kind of quiet...haven't seen them much because they've been busy. Which sucks because I love hanging out with them. Nikki's my girl and cool as hell and Joe's my boy. Joe in some ways is the male version of me. By that I mean that I understand how he is in a lot of situations because I'd be the same way. Hopefully I'll get to hang with them soon. Some of my other friends are basically MIA like Crystal and Patti. I've sent them emails and haven't heard a word back and called them and nothing so who knows. They're probably caught up in their own drama. Oh well time to start figuring out what I'm going to be up to tonight.