I really don't like December...
December is really becoming a month I hate and not just because it leaves me further in debt because of buying Christmas gifts for my family, but for a lot of other reasons. Too many deaths in the family for this month and too many emotional situations happen in this month. Then earlier this month we had a snow storm from hell just about and my street didn't get plowed. Fun, huh? It left me stuck right in front of my house for 2 hours trying to get my truck out. Finally I had to call a tow truck and pay to get towed to a main road so I could go to work. Another reason to dislike December. And now today I get another reason. Let's just say I'm almost kissing my tax return check completely goodbye. Well it probably is gone between city tax and my truck now. I thought my brake pads needed replaced. Ha, that would have been a blessing. Turns out a caliper (or whatever) decided to freeze up and then eat away at the rotor and so that all needed replaced and that alone is about $900 and then some secondary air thing needed fixed (not sure since my mom took the call...right now my parents are paying for it and then I'll pay them back) and that's gonna costs about $100 to $150. Now you can see another reason for me to hate December since that's about $1000 to go into my truck in just one short period and I can't afford it. I guess I'll try to kiss my boss's butt and see if I can put in some overtime.
And on top of that I am really getting tired of people's BS. It might not be so bad if they weren't so obvious about it. But I've had one person recently BS me and it's like okay do I have idiot written on my forehead or something? I mean you must think that with the lines you are feeding me. I even tried to give them an easy out to say hey this is the truth and so forth and they still wanted to BS me. It's like fine whatever. It's a shame that now I have to put up the caution with this friend and analyze all they say and wonder how much is BS and how much is truth. And what's worse is they have contradicted themselves which is how I know they are BSing me. Then their own actions showed their BS. I'm like if I'm truly your friend then why do you feel the need to BS me on this? I just don't get it. Actually I know the true reason behind it. It's one of those situations to try and save themselves for down the road but they just don't realize telling the truth would have saved themselves a lot more. I would have respected the truth more then sitting here watching them lie and catching them in it and they don't even realize it. But then again there's a lot I don't understand in life so why should I understand some of my friends and the way people are? I mean I won't even get into the whole situation because it's one of those where the more you think about it the more frustrating it is because the more BS you see and the more you realize the other person was just saying whatever popped into their head and not really thinking. Plus the more truth I realize about it all and it's just not good for the other person in it. Like I tell people....just be honest with me even if I'm not going to like the honest answer. I'll get over it in time. But if you BS me and I catch you in it (especially if you don't realize I'm catching onto your BS)...it's just going to be 10 times worse if not more because I'm going to hold it against you and you won't realize it. You won't realize that I'm watching you a lot closer to see how much you BS me. So while I might let other people slide from time to time...you won't get that slack because of it. It's a shame but some people force you to be that way. But oh well...it's time for bed. It's been a long week and still probably got 2 more 12 hour days.
And on top of that I am really getting tired of people's BS. It might not be so bad if they weren't so obvious about it. But I've had one person recently BS me and it's like okay do I have idiot written on my forehead or something? I mean you must think that with the lines you are feeding me. I even tried to give them an easy out to say hey this is the truth and so forth and they still wanted to BS me. It's like fine whatever. It's a shame that now I have to put up the caution with this friend and analyze all they say and wonder how much is BS and how much is truth. And what's worse is they have contradicted themselves which is how I know they are BSing me. Then their own actions showed their BS. I'm like if I'm truly your friend then why do you feel the need to BS me on this? I just don't get it. Actually I know the true reason behind it. It's one of those situations to try and save themselves for down the road but they just don't realize telling the truth would have saved themselves a lot more. I would have respected the truth more then sitting here watching them lie and catching them in it and they don't even realize it. But then again there's a lot I don't understand in life so why should I understand some of my friends and the way people are? I mean I won't even get into the whole situation because it's one of those where the more you think about it the more frustrating it is because the more BS you see and the more you realize the other person was just saying whatever popped into their head and not really thinking. Plus the more truth I realize about it all and it's just not good for the other person in it. Like I tell people....just be honest with me even if I'm not going to like the honest answer. I'll get over it in time. But if you BS me and I catch you in it (especially if you don't realize I'm catching onto your BS)...it's just going to be 10 times worse if not more because I'm going to hold it against you and you won't realize it. You won't realize that I'm watching you a lot closer to see how much you BS me. So while I might let other people slide from time to time...you won't get that slack because of it. It's a shame but some people force you to be that way. But oh well...it's time for bed. It's been a long week and still probably got 2 more 12 hour days.
posted by Missy D at 9:40 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home