Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Dun dun dun....the DATE!

Originally I was going to write about the date and then an update entry. But now I can't, well at least not the original way that I was going to. See I want you to be able to read about the date before you read the update. That way you'll be in the same spot as me. So in order to do that...you only get one post instead of 2, if I hadn't slacked off. Anyway last Friday I went on a date, well I guess that's what you can call it. The original plan was to go to a movie but Mike (the date) was running late so we opted to hit the bar and then go to a later showing of the movie. Things went well. Okay break so I can give the info on him. He's 26, a little bit taller then me, dark hair and brown eyes. He's about average build and is an electrician. One downside is the fact he was married before but it ended due to her cheating on him. Regardless though that wouldn't be a reason for me to rule someone out.

He picked me up and we hit a little bar near my house. I hadn't been there and I figured it might be a good start to the evening. Things were going really well. Chat was flowing easily between us and we were laughing and just getting along really well. I was telling things about myself and he was telling things about himself as well. Even thoughout the night he found little slick ways to make contact. Like once touching my leg to confirm that the pants I had on were in fact cords. Or even another time when he came back in from outside touching my face to show that his hands were cold. Even doing that again later to prove they were still cold and that now he wasn't sure if it was from the beer bottle or outside. Even at one point he touched my shoulder to give me an idea of exactly an area on him that had been injured in the past. It just really went well. We were there for more then a few hours. We ended up skipping the movie and just sitting there and talking all night. It wasn't like he seemed bored or eager to escape the night.

Now before all of this we had talked online, through text messages and over the phone. In fact a few days texts were sent back and forth all day long. I can't even count how many texts were sent between us. Even at the bar we talked about him coming to a party that my brother is having this weekend for Halloween. We talked about this Friday going to a haunted house with some of my friends. Plans were being made and I thought okay this is cool, something might actually come about from all of this.

But now I'm not so sure. Text messages between us have definitely slowed down a lot. I just don't get the same vibe from him as I did before. And now today suddenly he's not sure about anything this weekend because he's kinda busy. I admit I was pissed off. It was like what the hell?? I know we had agreed on it because he talked about something else he had going on and how he'd go there for a certain amount of time and then come to the party. I'm trying not to be negative about this but at the same time, I'm not going to be a fool about it either. I've even asked him if I would see him again and he said definitely, but it just doesn't seem the same. It's just so hard to explain it really. It's almost like his excitement is gone. Before if I sent any texts asking him something I got a response back. That's not the case anymore. I'm lucky to get a response back now. I think I may just chalk this one up to a lesson learned.

Like the other day was a bit annoying with him. He was asking just how far I would go with things and how kinky I can be. I said somethings that I would maybe consider. Now what pissed me off was when he took the one and was like well maybe we can have a 3some with the bartender at the bar. It's like um excuse me?!?? Yes because the first time I have sex with someone that I might get involved with in a serious way, I want it to be a 3some. I flat out called him out on it and was like why does it seem like you want to check it out so much? And asked if I wasn't enough because he was like what about this weekend? I was like no, I'm busy both days. Then he was like what about tomorrow (meaning today). He tried to respond back to my question if I wasn't enough that not that, just seeing what you will do. What the heck kind of reason is that?? Then he had to throw out the usual....well it's a fantasy to have 2 girls. Please insert eye roll. Then I even told him that well if he wanted a 3some with 2 girls that I may be the wrong girl for him to talk to. His response was what I expected with him saying I stand up for myself and he likes that. I felt like going good way to try not to piss me off more. Then even today again he made a joke about having to go see the bartender. I didn't respond and eventually he was like not funny huh. I was like nope, not at all. Feel free to say whatever you'd like about this one. I already know that there isn't really any hope with it.