Yep I'm still around even though I haven't updated in a while. Just been busy as hell this month with birthdays and parties and then with having to move stuff. Unfortunately even though this month has been full of celebrations (5 birthdays, St.Patty's Day) it was also a month of mourning. A great uncle of mine had passed away kind of unexpected too. He had gone into the hospital and I believe they had figured out that the one night he had had a small heart attack but he was doing fine after that. In fact he was set to be leaving the hospital in a few days. He would have been out before but they decided to keep him until they put a stint in rather then discharge him only for him to come back a few days later. It was a tough funeral for me but more because of having to see how much pain my mother was in. Seeing my family or close friends in pain just tears me apart because I want to be able to help them and not see them hurting and this was a time that there was nothing I could do. A few times I did what I could to get a little chuckle out of here even if it only lasted for a short time.

In the end I have to remind myself he's in a better place now and back with his wife who had passed away a few years ago. I ended up helping with the funeral. I did a reading at the church service which was a bit freaky because it was the same reading I had done for my great aunt (his wife). Then I also was a paul bearer for it. Yep a girl did it. I really felt honored to be one. It's hard to explain but when we walked next to the casket going into the church I almost felt like a guardian of my uncle. Well since then there has been a lot of furniture switching around. My grandmother got some of the stuff from his house and there was some stuff we got (like a computer desk and a chair). Then since my grandmother was getting his bedroom set my mom wanted my grandmother's bedroom set because it had been hers when she was younger. So you can see that this meant taking stuff from one house to another, then loading up stuff from the 2nd house to take to the 3rd house. And now stuff from the 3rd house is going to be loaded up and taking to a 4th house. Like my brother is taking my old desk and an old bedroom set since I'm getting a new bed as well. It's been a long month so far and I'll be glad when it's all over and done with.

Yes I am still alive and kicking. Unfortunately I've been distracted with drama that takes me all the way back to high school? No wait...middle school? Nah, I'd say elementary school might be a better option for this drama. Speaking of that...Will you know that even as powerful as I am...I can't control that BS. LOL Hell if I could I would have waved my wand a long time ago and made some of those people disappear and made the world a better place at the same time. I guess the old saying of..."the more things change the more they stay the same" is true. Even when you grow up you still at times have to deal with that childish BS that was around you as a kid from time to time. Some people just deal with less of it then others. I'm working on getting to the point where I deal with less of it. I have no problem cutting people out of my life to make it easier. Life is tough enough on people as it is without dealing with people trying to cause trouble for you or trying to make your life hell. I give people credit to be smart enough to make up their own mind about me. If people want to allow the opinions of others to influence them then it's their loss, not mine. I know the type of person I am and the friend I am to my friends. Cocky or not...I've done my best job to be one hell of a friend to all my friends. Always being there if they need someone to talk to. Always listening to their problems and trying to help them. Going out of my way for them and really just trying to do all I can. Don't get me wrong...I have my own faults as well and flaws that I have to work on. But I just know the good outweighs the bad when it comes to me.

One thing that does suck is people can hear things and then not really be open to hearing the explanation of what happened. I think you should always give someone the chance to explain themselves and truly be open to it especially if your information is nothing but basically easydropped information passed onto you. But whatever...I'm not going to let things bring me down for no reason.

I'm looking forward to March. I know about 5 people with birthdays this month. I swear there is a birthday just about every week. Plus I've got a concert to go to, which is actually a birthday present for my dad. It's just going to be a crazy but fun month. Oh well back to work I go.