Party #3 and I'm just worn out...

This might be a quicky since here shortly I need to start throwing my costume on again since I'm going to a bar tonight for a Halloween party which will be #3. So far I've gotten good feedback on my costume. Even some of my friends think I should dye my hair darker because of it. Well I can't say my mood is totally better then it has been. There's still just so much stuff going on in my mind. I've been on an emotional roller coaster and Tim has been on it with me as well so as usual I'm trying to push aside my own issues to help him. And there's just so much stuff coming up left and right. And most situations I'm just like okay someone come here and help me out cause I'm lost. Even Tim's been confused with some of them so it's like okay let's just go with the flow and see what happens. But today has been a long day.

I had softball this morning and my goodness I just had no energy for it. I was just like ugh. Have you ever been like that where you just feel so drained? Plus I'm so frustrated with the way I'm hitting and playing lately. Although I did have one nice hit today. I wanted to hit to right field and I did. But beyond that...the rest was not very good even though I did get on base most of the times that I batted. But sadly the season is coming to an end.

Yeah anyone want to help me with a blood transfer?? I'm gonna need it for my birthday!! Tim's set to get me trashed. And even last night at the bar this one server was talking to me and saying how out of all the times up there he's never seen me trashed. I was like I'm buzzed right now and told him all I had to drink. I joked that in 2 weeks he'd see me trashed and told him why. He was nice enough to offer to help out by throwing out the fact that he'd buy me a shot of Cabo Wabo, for non drinkers that would be a nice shot of tequila. I was like gee thanks. I'm like give me a blood transfer because I am soo going to need it cause after that weekend my blood is going to be nothing but pure alcohol! And to make it worse that Sunday we have our first playoff game for softball. Not sure how I'm going to pull that off except I do plan on doing my major drinking on Friday night and not Saturday. LOL Although that doesn't mean that Tim, Nikki, Joe, Josh and anyone else helping me celebrate will be nice enough to allow that to happen. They might have other plans.

Well right now half of my family is living it up in Florida for a week at Disney World at the Army's resort down there, Shades of Green. I'm 50/50 on whether I'm bummed about not going. It would be nice to be in Florida and just kick back for the week but I'll have a blast here and I already have with last night and I know I will tonight. Plus I honestly right now need some time to myself without anyone bugging me so hopefully I can get things sorted out in my life and get back on track. But oh well let me wrap this up since I do need to eat dinner before tonight. Sorry but I don't do the empty stomach drinking...pure stupidity to do that.

Not a good mood at all....

I figured I'd quickly write an entry while I have some desire to. I'm sure by the end of this week I'll be in no mood to since I plan on working 12 hour days for the next 3 days and then Friday I'll work who knows how long but hopefully I'll be off in time to play softball and then go to the bar afterwards. Then Saturday I have to wake up early to take my parents to the airport (yeah gotta be up before 7) and that night I have a Halloween party which hopefully will turn some things around in my life. Then Sunday is another Halloween party as well as more softball. But right now I am in a pretty bad mood. I don't even want to get into it here. 4 of my best friends know the deal and well no offense to anyone that doesn't know but that's where I'm leaving it at. I just know this week is really going to push me and be hard on me. One of the things missing from my life is really bothering me and I just have to get back to being okay with it not being there right now.

But anyway...what's better then softball + rain? Well it's what you get when you mix rain plus a bunch of dirt. Did someone say mud? Yep you got it. That was what we played in Sunday. God it was a lot of fun. Actually I was trying to stay somewhat clean until this one play at 3rd. Which by the way 3rd base had this nice big puddle of water by it which later when people ran by splashed up on me a bit. But this girl tagged up and my outfielder's throw was almost there to get her (just a little too low) and when she slid...well I got a nice shower in the face. I was like thanks. After that I didn't care and started to get into it. In fact I kind of dove for one ball and almost got it. But the best had to have been when one time I rounded 1st cause the ball was overthrown but the damn catcher was backing it up. It might have been since the 3rd basewoman kept overthrowing it and I looked back and was like damn. So I had to do a headfirst dive back to first. Now that might have been okay in just mud but 1st was just as bad if not a little worse then 3rd in terms of the water puddle mud. So my right side was just covered in wet mud. In fact I think I gained about 10 pounds after that and I was unfortunately out but it was fun. :) And I even managed to get some mud on my left pant leg too. I think my clothes had to go through the washer like 3 or 4 times and that was after I beat them in the shower a bit to try and get the dirt off a bit. But oh well...I'm done so I can get some sleep.

This and that...yeah you could call it my life....

So I figured it was time to give the general 411 on my life. So hold onto your hats, brace yourselves, hell you may wanna sit down. I'm still working at Progressive...almost 6 years now and still wondering what the hell I'm doing. No college degree, still can't figure out what I'd like to major in so since I've got the basics done why spend money on classes that I might later decide have nothing to do with the major I want? So college is on hold still. I'm still living at home. Too busy enjoying my life when I go out and party with friends. Is it bad when I go into a bar and the bartenders all know what I drink and the bouncers all know my name? But I always have a good time there and you gotta enjoy life while you can so that's what I'm doing. I'm still playing softball. Right now I play 2 games on Friday and 2 on Sundays. Friday is on a team with a friend of mine and Sunday is actually a lot of the same people from my summer team.

Let's see what else. Love life?? Did I hear someone ask about my love life??? Remind me to smack that person later. Yeah the pages of that book are still empty...unfortuantely. And unfortunately this week is one of those weeks where being single is bumming me out. Usually I don't mind it because I can flirt with whoever but there are those times I want all that comes with the relationship. So I guess you could say my love life right now is 2 bouncers that are into me, although one of which can't really count since he's got a girlfriend even if she is stuck up and seems like a stick in the mud. LOL :) I just call it like I see it. But yeah let's quickly change subject...still got 5 tattoos (been tattooed 6 times) and the top of my left ear pierced.

Back to softball...Sunday we creamed a team...26 to 6!! I walked 3 times and got a hit the last time and scored 4 runs. But my last hit was a beautiful shot that just screamed past the shortstop. Even the shortstop on my team said it was probably the most solid hit he has seen any girl in co-ed softball do. Made me happy since I've been in a slight slump hitting wise. And right now I'm planning my birthday. Pretty much going to be 4 days of partying with my friend Josh coming in from out of town. But yeah that's my life in a nutshell. Nothing really exciting. I'm still just me.

Costume and Bars...

I figured since I hinted at my costume that I should be nice and tell what it is. Granted I still have to get my butt to the store and actually buy my shirt and boots for it but I have most of it. Basically you could say I'm going to be a Gothic/evil Elf kind of like the ones from Lord of the Rings, not like a Kebler Elf. LOL So I've got this black skirt to wear and the bottom I cut (since I couldn't find one I liked) and it's jagged so some points come up higher then others. I've gotta add a few more touches to it and yes I'll take some pictures and send them to everyone. But I've also got a cape to wear. Then I plan on coloring my hair black for the night. Don't forget my little fake elf ears to wear and then I'll have a little bit of face paint. It'll be some type of design probably like around my eyes or near my eyes and then down the side of my face a bit and maybe outlined it black but it'll be glitter paint (blue, purple and clear). So like I said just gotta get the top which tomorrow I'll hit Hot Topic because there's 2 shirts I wanna check out there.

I should be getting ready to go to the bar but waiting for a call from a friend. It's kind of sad but pretty much Thursday, Friday and Saturday we're at the same bar. Almost all of the bouncers and bartenders know our names. But it's nice because we get hooked up pretty well from the bartenders. In fact too well sometimes. LOL But we return the favor when it comes to tipping. But it's kind of nice to know if anyone started anything with us that there's about 2 guys that are over 6 foot tall who have our back and that doesn't include the other bouncers who work there. What's really odd is somehow I'm like the only one that they really know the name of. Go figure. But I think it's partially because 2 of them (well the ones over 6 foot) are both kind of into me. Okay my friend Tim better call soon or else I'm about to crawl into bed and say screw the bar tonight. He got suckered into going to a play tonight. He thought his friend got tickets for Sunday but nope. Oh well until next time...

Rain + Softball = Not always a good mix...

I love rain and I love softball. Oh later I'll get to all the info about who I am and all of that but that's not too important since most people reading this know who I am. But back to my little subject. I'm doing double duty this fall with softball. I play Friday nights and Sunday mornings and it's usually 2 games for both leagues. Now if you know much about fall softball then you know unless there's lightning then you play pretty much no matter what. Well some leagues will call off if the field is too bad but we played. It drizzled non-stop for both games. We were like the only team to play 2 games. Everyone else played one game and then was done. I was soaked on my left side (rain was falling that way) and it was just getting cold. Now if it's warm then hey I don't mind the rain for softball but cold rain...yuck!! So now I'm like please don't get sick. Please!! I'm just finally getting over a cold as it is.

Plus it's supposed to be a bit cold tomorrow and I've got games tomorrow. The bad thing is I can't skip tomorrow's games since my Sunday team is kind of running low on girls. Yeah we pretty much have the bare minimum. And I've got a small bruise on my catching hand which is always a good thing. LOL

Oh well this will be my little short entry to start it off. I can't wait for Halloween which I should be at a store right now trying to find the last parts of my costume. I have a party to go to next Saturday and the Saturday after that and the one after that as well as Halloween night itself and the Saturday after Halloween. Yep, 4 Halloween parties to go to this year. Hey at least I'll get my money's worth from my costume. Anyway that'll be a wrap on this for now.